Boredom

I am terrible at not working. I am so BORED. I've read books, I've watched tv, I've seen friends, I've gone to a movie, I've slept in, I've played games, I've researched jobs, enrolled in my Masters Degree, spoken to lots of people on the phone, cleaned the kitchen and I have more to do, it's just...boring to me.

Unfortunately for me most of it is essential, just not interesting. Guess that happens a lot in life. I'm just not enthused by it anymore.

On a side note - I have been taking my ass outside in Canberra's bloody freezing "spring" temperatures and I'm pleased to report I'm not the same colour as a snow man anymore. So that's good I guess.

I suck at this unemployment thing.

Change

Change is so instant sometimes. It just hits you like a freight train. It was such a shock. I'm still reeling.

On the up side I want to get out of bed again. I don't cry randomly. I am hesitating more than I should but I'm trying not to procrastinate, and I'm getting a few things done each day. I guess that's all I can hope for right now. It's not what I hoped for but it's much better than it was.

Redundant

So I was "made redundant" today.

It's a load of crock. My employer will hire someone else after the appropriate period of time. My boss hated me. It was the worst. And now it's done. I get a payout and I get to move on with my life.

People are expecting me to be upset or angry. And I am, kind of. It's just not very potent. I'm more relieved and happy to have some time to commit to my search and make move that I want to without looking over my shoulder.

I had an interview last week. I have another one next week and a potential job in the tubes. It's all pretty exciting. I'm going to wake up tomorrow and it's not going to be awful. I'm not going to dread it. And it's going to be magical.

I cannot wait.