Overdoing it

I am guilty of overdoing it almost all the time. I can't seem to stop myself. I find something that's interesting, research it, read about it, and investigate everything I can until I can take action. Once I take action, I throw myself into something. But I don't make any space in my already busy life for this new time consuming thing. I try to just squish it in. It never works. I always end up with a ton of energy (from excitement) that quickly drains away and all the time I am pushing myself past all the signs of tiredness because I just want to read one more chapter, investigate one more listing... Well, you get the idea. Aaaand then this happens:

I am so single-minded in my focus that I lose sight of the bigger picture. I forget to look after myself, I forget to be nice, I forget to socialise, and I forget to relax. This drive and focus also comes across as confidence. When it's actually not really. It's just knowledge, that pours out without hesitation.

Confidence to me is the belief in yourself that you can do or achieve something. I don't have that with very many things. Maybe it's because I don't believe I will be successful that I try so damn hard at everything. To give myself the best chance. Hard work is something I know I am capable of. I am confident in my ability to work and so I apply that to all other things so I am using a strength without having any particular strength in that subject or activity. I believe that you have to make your strengths into transferable skills to succeed.